today, ive been thinking about why i did so badly for chem test. sure, i didnt really study. but i did read through briefly. and i thought i understood the chapters. its like a really noisy wake up call. maybe its time to get down to work, to realise that a levels is in five months and thats not really a long enough time for me to sit on my butt and watch time pass. but i have to say that its a really timely wake up call. i havent been feeling the urgency, like i really have a major exam this year. my brain seems to think i got retained or sth so im not taking as this year. so i really have gotta realise that its my life and i gotta start living it. by mugging? yupp, its for your future, ming. you gotta start anyway. so stop procrastinating! so pls wake up and really start working. stop letting everything slip by so easily as if you really dont give a shit anymore. coz you do. so start working! cliched as it may sound, but its really nothing without labour. thats the victorian spirit man. haha.
and ive thought about how fickle our human mind is. we keep changing our decisions on what we want. one min we want this, the nxt min we've decided that thats not good enough for us and we want sth else. you think you'll absolutely die if it doesnt/does happen then when it does/doesnt happen then u realise that you didnt/did want it afterall. i think we really just want what we cannot have la. if sth is offered to us on a platter we will prob start finding fault with it and not appreciate it. and when we know we cant have sth, we start seeing how great it really is and we think that afterall, we really really want it. seriously. i think its human nature. why did God create us to be such greedy pigs? haha. maybe its not how God created us. maybe its the environment. oh i dunno. forget it.
im off. and oh yes, its one more day to HOLIDAYS!! wow im looking forward to it like mad. HOLIDAYS!! haha okay. everybody enjoy the last day of sch tmr!
your subtleties
they strangle me
i can't explain myself at all
and all the wants
and all the needs
all I don't want to need at all
a star fell from the sky;
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